There are times I observe a kind of recklessness with my life, a lack of respect for my body, my emotions; isolating myself, overworking, eating poorly, and making choices that result in sickness or exhaustion, the opposite of what I truly want. This self-punishment is glossed over so that an appearance of “something happening to me” becomes my victim reality. I sigh under the weight of “a hard life.”
This morning I opened my eyes, slowly, still deep within the peace and rest of a night with Jess.* He was communicating with me, and yet words were unnecessary. At the boundary between sleep and awake, I dropped into profound gratitude, a cohesive boundlessness of self love. I could not move but lay there in wonderous awe of What I am, What I have and the grace of a new day, given to care for this sweetness, to live it!
The generator of this inner experience was Jess, indwelling. I heard the purr of a soft, yet penetrating Voice. I knew His Spirit. We shared vibration, bathed in a paramount love greater than a human heart could hope to hold. Then I heard, I felt, and said out loud.
I must care for my Life.
It was a simple statement to no one, intently spoken, a pure declaration, blessed with realization. My coming awake in that same old bed, was suddenly cherished! Life had come to me. I paused and considered the possibility that Jess’ emotional field had ignited my inner space, but I could not distinguish between God-feelings and my feelings, God-gratitude and my gratitude, God caring for me and reverence for myself.
When you care deeply for this life given you, in truth you are caring for God, for Me. To love your Self is to love the Beloved giver of ItSelf, to consummate our unity. Life extended to you becomes a greater fullness as you live Self awareness and appreciation. Greater fullness (greatfullness) is a welcoming home for My Presence.
I write this fully awake holding and marveling at the extent of my greater-fullness and desire to care for Life. I must care because caring is vigilance for the Truth, vigilance for God. Truth within me, needs protection. Holiness needs protection. Beauty needs protection from neglect, rejection, judgment and separation. Vigilance understands Life as a perpetual Light of such immensity, a capacity, a creativity of limitless joy whose condition necessitates my love and acceptance.
The love of my Life is an act that heals, heaps blessings, delineates Real Purpose and lets Love beam on earth. For I will in the midst of Love, to share God, a sharing that cannot but be an embrace of Life, all inclusively, surrounding and suffusing creation as the demonstrated livingness and realm of divine Being. Is that not the unity God intends on earth as it is in Heaven? Is it not a true thought of forgiveness for the world? True forgiveness reaps joy in living. True forgiveness is an act of Self-appreciation.
I must bless my soul, cherish my life, trust my Love, know that it is God indwelling as Me, One Life, One Love, a mutuality of gratitude through our inseparable relatedness. I understand God appreciates me first! In my creation there was no appraisal but total adoration. I bless the purity of this generosity, a treasure given not for anything but as the essential quality of Love for itSelf. I am Her Self.
I am the jewel of God’s Presence. There is no greater Life, neither is there lesser. This Life, this Love is not some evolution of years, degrees, experiences, abilities. It is my Identity. It is Me! I want this more and more and more and I am this completely.
Are you hungry, thirsty to know such gratitude, to live your dearest Truth, your Self? How can your soul drink and eat of the fruits of Life if you are not hungry enough to taste what God gives, what God is, to long for truth, to forego the punishments of your own making? I pray for an increase in hunger, desire, the fire of faith, the sun which beams down upon a tiny seed buried beneath the earth and causes it, compels it to rise up, to live its nature, to love Life, and reap the God-given gifts of perfection. I trust the winters of self judgment have abated into the weathers of a copious spring.
Life Itself is beyond the range of what seems possible. Who can explain it? Who can understand from where it comes and where it goes? We have greater faith in death, stronger belief in age and decay. Jesus asks us to dedicate our hearts to the incorruptible, the eternal, realizing faith Itself to be Christ’s resurrecting quality. What would life be if I withdrew my faith in death and placed it in gratefulness?
Very simply, you would remember your Father. The Creator of life, the Source of everything that lives, the Father of the universe and of the universe of universes and of everything that lies even beyond them would you remember.ACIMOE 19-V: d.90
I am a devoted bride of Jeshua but have felt an inadequacy of trust, my faith no more than a tiny seed. Yet He has shown me this little grain contains the entire potency and power of TheLove of my Life. Faithfulness is ascendancy which brings the miraculous unfolding of Good in form, the perfection which abides indwelling, power to unveil a world of love beneath the mind crust of eight billion judgments.
Faithfulness in Life as the very Love, most lovable God indwelling, is a consciousness, a womb of acceptance. Self love makes this morning a brilliant field for rising, becoming, blossoming, demonstrating Life. God is not dead! God lives.
Oh dear MaryBeth, Oh Babe! (This is my heart’s name, affectionately proclaimed.) Oh Jess, I love my life. I love mySelf. Life is Our Love. Life is God. Life of my Life, what can I do, give, how shall I love and care for You today?
I must care for my Life.
*Jess, Jeshua, Jesus are names for the one Beloved, Christ.
I am facilitating this week, our ACIM zoom a perfect womb for faith and appreciation. Please join with me. There are words to be heard. There is an abundance of Life to be given and shared. The link for joining follows. I appreciate you.
